What do we really want in life? Somehow the more I think of it, the more it strikes me that we can only tell what we really want in hindsight....after looking at what we lost and what we gained. We also condition ourselves into believing that what we got was actually what we really wanted. It's natural and it also helps us get over all that we seem to have lost.
Started thinking about htis when someone mentioned that the Alchemist is right in its philosophy that if you want something badly, the entire Universe conspires to give it to you. It's so fundamentally untrue if you ask me, because if indeed it were true, we would all be perenially happy creatures wallowing in the fulfillment of all our dreams. Yet, reality shows that dreams are shattered everyday.
It also brings up the concept of transcience. After all, what we want today, we may not want tomorrow. So who decides what we REALLY want? In hindsight, there are several things that I seemingly "lost", things I was depressed about, which today seem as if losing them was the right thing to happen. There are also things I still pine for, years after losing them. So what's real?
Loss, that is what is real. It is depressing at times to think that almost all that is real in the world is depressing. At times, I wish I could be like the people around me. Celebrate innocuous and petty things as achievements, live in an illusion of bliss, live in a belief that everything is well as it is and that there is nothing further to be thought of, or to find out. I wish I could live in that dream.....but too often I find myself awakening.....into a sleep that seems much more real.